Things I dont like about this illness

There are lots of things i don't like about this illness. One of the things is that I am getting forgetful. I can be thinking about something that I'm going to do and the next instance I've forgotten what it was. Real bummer. I'm also having anxiety big time! I went to the doctors last week and he said to me "You have Graves Disease"... When he said that, It didn't make me feel better. Everyone else has been saying, Hyperthyroidism. But he just bluntly said Graves Disease. Just the sound of it makes me feel down.
I'm really trying not to dwell on it and keep a positive outlook on this. It does take a lot of motivating myself sometimes.

Yesterday, it took me almost a hour to get out of bed. Not just because I was having pain moving. I just seem to be in slow motion. I'm sleep deprived from being up at night and sometimes I find myself sitting in a chair asleep or I'm sitting on my bed sleeping. My intent is to go there and do something in my room and I start to think about something.. then Im sleeping again. Lately, I've been going to bed at around 8pm. I just cant seem to keep my eyes open. But later during the night I'm wide awake and can't get back to sleep. It's usually because I woke up with pain in my legs. I try ice paks on my legs or warm heat to them. I sometimes don't think it really works.

These are a few things I don't like about this illness and another thing is, I feel very weak and don't have a lot of strength in my arms and legs. My doctor gave me Vitamin D last week. This is prescribed vitamin, which is supposed to be stronger than the over the counter ones. Well, my insurance doesn't cover vitamins. Thats what I found out and the four pills he prescribed cost me $10.00. This is too much for me right now. When I return to his office I will let him know that I can't afford this right now. We will have to try and figure something out. I will also let him know that I will accept free samples of medications. Sometimes this is a option you can get at the doctors office. Medications can be very expensive, so it pays to ask your doctor about samples he may have to help you out.

Well, this week is almost over and it has been alittle rough for me. My right knee started to swell and I've been dealing with that for a few days. I see my doctor tomorrow and will see what she says. I will keep you updated about things. Keep trying to move forward and think "I will get better soon". I can do this. Have a great rest of the week and weekend!! see ya soon. peace